i don't know about "illusion" - maybe i am comfortable with the idea that my t likes other clients and cares about them? i mean, i think he can care about multiple people. as for feeling special... i have two kids. my youngest one is too young to feel it yet, but when he is older and if we have other kids, i can make each kid feel special without diminishing the importance or value of the other children. my oldest will always be my first baby, my second will have his own place, and if we have more, they will have their places.

the fact that my t moved things around to give me my regular time doesn't mean he doesn't value the clients he moved. he may do something else for them that reinforces their place in his professional life. and that's okay. I don't feel possessive of my t.