Blown through my entire life savings and then some.

I have spent an astonishing quarter of a million dollars plus in 2 years trying to "fix myself", "clear my name, restore my reputation" and just stay alive and not kill myself by suicide.

And not only have I blown through all of that, my life savings, I am now deeply in debt, my family will kill me and disown me.

I may have no choice but bankruptcy, I am down to my last few thousand in liquidity and can no longer make my payments. If I must do a bankruptcy, I hope I can do a 13, so I don't lose what personal property I have left, including my car.

So, first I'm gonna grovel for help - they could do it in a flash, but I doubt they will. I say I "earned" it through sweat equity, tears, and blood. But I doubt my family will see it that way - it will be just more proof of my loserdom.

Oh vey - I know the party is over, but I had no choice, do it or die, and money does nothing for a dead man.