I have the same diagnosis as you do. Your symptoms do have aspects of some other disorders, but I don't think that's unusual for anyone here. These diagnosis kinda overlap each other and that's pretty 'normal'. My own opinion is, it sounds like some mania-type symptoms and PTSD along with schizoaffecive. My disorder progressed very slowly. My first severe depression when I was 14 ended up making me think I could move things with my mind and I thought I could hear Satan speaking to me in my head. I didn't have another psychotic episode until I was 36. That was me screaming night and day, violence, not eating or sleeping, abusing drugs and alcohol so I could sleep and I heard I danced a lot (that shocked me to find out!). I couldn't stop moving and pacing and anything I touched was either thrown or broken. I then started hearing things like white noise and I'd look for which tv was on and there wasn't one on. I heard church bells without living near a church. Then my arms started looking longer than I knew they were and the floor looked further away. No more psychosis until this year (i'm 43 now) and I hear this stupid musical rhythm all the time.

I hate to say this because I know you don't want to take these meds, but the only thing that helped me was antipsychotics, specifically Seroquel. There are a ton of varieties out there so don't worry that you'll just sit in a corner and drool. I think that's it's dangerous for people to make their own choices when it comes to which meds they will or won't take. We have every right to make our own decisions, but sometimes we aren't the best judge as to what will help our symptoms. We just don't have the training to know what's best and when we are at our worst, we don't make good choices either. At least that's my own take on things. I hope this doesn't offend or anything! I'm only trying to offer some feedback. Hang in there - you aren't alone!