Was thinking about sh. Was going to go do it, and suddenly I imagined a woman crying and begging for it not to happen. She wasn't me, and she wasn't begging me, but it gave me pause. I couldn't do it. Put the blade back where is sleeps. :/ I think my subconscious had had enough for now between the stuff talked about with t yesterday and the sh of late... must remember to listen to her...

Very weird way to get myself to stop. I'm a freak...