I'm an attorney. I had a very good job, high stress, but well paid job for about two weeks. I quit in a fit of bipolar / ptsd anxiety, and am now struggling to build a sole practice. I was in private practice for 15 years, but I am broke, and in a new town, and am having a melt down about how I am going to survive. To make things worse, I am the sole breadwinner for my family.

I hate myself. Not very helpful. I am doing everything I can to build up a sole practice, but the phone is not ringing. It has been three days of not a single phone call. I had a thriving law practice in this town up until two years ago. I am such a flake. I'm ruining my life, one step at a time. I guess I'm just venting.

I hurt. I have a lot of self-hate. I know I should have never quit the job. But I have burned that bridge now. The stress was too much. I'd rather be in private practice but it wasn't a well thought out decision. I feel suicidal about this situation. I don't know where to turn or what to do. I hate myself.