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Originally Posted by Parley
I guess I don't understand what you are saying. The difference in Motown's, real threat, is different compared to who/what? Someone who experiences paranoia/delusions?
I was just wondering about the difference.
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Well, I don 't want to speak for OE, I will try to explain my views on the comparisons and contrasts between my fear of my father and my fear of being discarded into the mental health system.
With him, it was a legitimate fear, both my mom and myself felt it was a very real possibility he could kill us, he came close a couple of times. He threatened to shoot me, at gunpoint, when it was 14. He held a knife to my mom's throat when I was 7, for over an hour, and told her she had to confess to being a *****, then he cut her enough to make her bleed and told her it was a warning. And after he died, I felt a big sense of relief, and other than the PTSD thing, which it thought was long over until 2 years ago, I felt safe from him, although I had a lot of generalized fear and anxiety.
With the whatever this is re the fear of being locked up, I still am a bit unsure why it is so strong. I was threatened with lockup 2 years ago by the quack, it was NOT merited, and it IS, in my mind today, the most traumatic thing I have ever endured. Probably because the childhood things faded with time until they were brought back to life 2 years ago. But I know intellectually it is not really a legitimate fear, just a hypothetical or remote possibility. Which is why I am unsure if it is a paranoid delusion or hyper vigilance.