I'm very depressed and I feel as though my old online haunts no longer want me around. I know of reasons why this may be, but I don't think I'm any more obnoxious than a lot of other people out there. I have poor social skills and its hard to type so I'm not very conversational, plus the anxiety has been horrible.

I know it's wrong but I can't help thinking I need heroin. I can't cope without the benzos. I've done nothing but sit on my bed for almost 2 years. I have gotten so weak - I'm not living for anything because I enjoy nothing. I just want to be dead. I suspect it will happen soon anyway because my life line has almost disappeared from my palm. I don't know what to do with myself.