Hey, hope I didn't copy your subject line, I only just noticed! I'm with you girl. My life is miserable and I wish I was dead (but don't want to offend anyone with suicide talk.) all I can say is, you sound depressed. Are you on meds? They say depression is a treatable illness. For me, I came off all my meds for personal reasons. I think this has been not good for my brain chemistry.

Anyways take this to heart. F your soon to be inlaws. F what anyone thinks. We should take care of ourselves and stop giving a crap about others.