You are not doing anything wrong. It does sound like your meds need some re-evaluation. And the way your counselor handled a referral to someone else is really insensitive. It's the last thing you need. The part about needing to see someone more often is probably a good idea, but the way that was handled was wrong wrong wrong.

Do you have it in you to see your pdoc and ask to revisit the medications you're taking? And when you can get some air in you, can you follow up about seeing that other therapist who can see you more regularly?

There is a way out of this. Hang in there.