I wish that my providers would stop asking me about the hallucinations. When I dissociate I have a hallucinogenic barrier between myself/my selves and reality.

Am I supposed to memorize the elements of my visual and audible hallucinations? "Are the voices in your head or outside?" Do I really care enough to explain something they'll NEVER understand?

As long as I can slip away when the stress is too great I don't care who I am or what my reality has become.

Do they need to know who is gone? Or am I really gone and who is still present if anyone at all?

I say prosecute the pervert that caused me this trauma.

Lauren Ann