((Echoes))

I love this post. I wonder what that loneliness is really. Is it abandonment? Is it a place we went we we were kids and left alone too much? Is it desire? Yearning? Or is it blank? Maybe the ultimate reconnection is to ourselves rather than waiting a week to connect with our T's. Do you think that there is an element of fear attached to this disconnect? Maybe, could it be a core fear of denial?

I don't believe your time spent on this is wasted because it is real, rather it is valuable because it is real. I congratulate you for taking the time to process what you are feeling. Just because we feel powerless over changing something doesn't mean we must deny ourselves the time to acknowledge, and explore the feelings attached to it. It's like a serious illness where one must always have hope and keep trying to reach a certain level of comfort, despite what the books say.

It sounds like you must feel so secure with your T and that is wonderful. Maybe writing is a way to stay connected to her. I know it's what I try!