I am horrified by the anger , frustration and pain I feel in this very confusing up down in out relationship with my adult daughter. I have had some really painful contacts with her and I have been foolish enough to try to make some positive kind of contact with her but it goes south very quickly. I struggle with not having contact but get in heaps of trouble when I do. We have had some better moments but I it feels so unsettled because I can't talk to her about my feelings. Bad tempers flair with any effort to find understanding. It wouldn't be so bad if it didn't upset me so. I can't seem to be happy living in limbo. I would like something positive to happen to get to a better feeling. I am angry , upset and miserable to have this important relationship so disturbed.