hey, I used to have panics attacks from time to time, but since last sunday I have more of freaky realistic dreams, and when I wake up in the morning first thing I feel is heart beating like crazy and depersonalization... I don't feel real, I don't feel me, only like fear of this state is pushing me to jumping over balcony, got thoughts that maybe I'm possessed... I don't know what to do:c especially when I have to go to employment office tomorrow, which is quite far and lots of people there.. any advice how I calm down't this feelings? still looking for psychiatrist so I don't have any meds..