Oh, Echoes. I just came home from T and you basically wrote the post for me. I am going through the panicky, separation feelings that you described. They started about 10 minutes before the session ended and they continue. The disconnect is already there because I don't know how to hold on. Don't know if there's anything to hold on to... if there is, I don't know how to grab it.

It's an awful discomfort, I know.

We also talked a lot about how I have tried to fill up that space-- similarly to you-- with men, clothes, cigarettes, self injury, fast driving, playing around with my meds, etc. But the space is still there.