((( ECHOES )))

Leaving T today caused my usual panicky feelings. It is about separation and it is about disconnection. Out of sight, out of mind.

I so get this. Especially with my T being out sick and everything. Even yesterday at P-docs I felt totally disconnected. Like if I disappeared, it wouldn't matter.

This is when it's easiest for me to isolate. I've been thinking about picking up the phone and saying let's just end T now.