Scarlet, I'm so sorry you are in such pain. You have an awful lot on your plate so it's not surprising you're so depressed. I know how hard it is to have all this and then chronic depression on top of it all. My thoughts are with you. And you are coping better than you think you are- reaching out on PC is a positive thing. You are taking some kind of action to find help. But with all this I still think you should call or email your therapist- you're in a lot of pain and just a couple of minutes of reassurance might be all you need. It's not asking for a lot.