Thank you for all the support. I still feel sick though. I talked to my husband last night and he wants me to try to see my same councilor I will just have to travel a city over to see him more regularly. I haven't been able to call to ask them if this is ok or not yet so if that doesn't work I don't know what I'll do. I was supposed to call them today but my phone is not working and I don't know what's wrong with it. I'm really picky when it comes to councilors.

My husband and I talked about if I were to go inpatient (I never have before) and he says he wants to use that as a last resort. But I'm afraid of myself. When my husband is home from work and my son is cared for that's when the thoughts really get bad. I feel like maybe I shouldn't risk it and should go to in patient care but that's not what my husband wants because my mom would have to watch my son and he wouldn't be able to see him every night.

Has anyone been to impatient that can tell me what its like? How often could I see my son? Would I still be able to make my art?