SPG, I don't know how I will live through today, but I do know that I will fight till I made it through. I am sick physically sick with a post cancer treatment that hurts everyday, am depressed, I have high anxiety, panic attacks every single freaking day. And my husband is in the hospital recovering from Pneumonia and post lung surgery and I can't be there with him because me being me, after 3 days without leaving the hospital I got a horrible cold.

So, am back at home, trying to figures out how to pay the bills, sick, mentally and physically, still having bad, dark thoughts about my reason to be alive.

Same as you, you ShyPoetGirl are someone I care, we are here all together in this thread, I care because I understand what you area talking about, I don't have the same issues but I can empathize with you all over the way.

Please think about your live, think that if you are thinking in hurting yourself, you are not doing any good to anyone. Your life is precious to me, and let me tell you the true, if a good PC doctor find the right medication and the right dose for you, you will not feel this way. You will want to fight and see slowly how to keep asking others that are professional how to be in a better situation.

I really get up set when I read about your parents, but that is their problem, the way they are acting is their issues. You are not alone, have to be a way to find more help. Mean time, keep writing here, keep fighting, you might be a great poet, maybe life is testing in a very suck way all of us. And we are not giving up.

Stay safe! Big hugs, Alexia