All I think of when I think of heroin is a constant need for something and resorting to prostitution to get it. I've been self-destructive and put myself in situations that totally dehumanized me in the past and I would never want to go to that place again. I understand that the inner self can be so miserable that it doesn't seem to matter sometimes. For me, these feelings were of desperation, and the best alternative path is to find a safe place to be with others. Right now, I go to a center where others with mental illnesses meet to connect. It's a place where I feel comfortable because I know we all share this in common. There are therapy groups taking place throughout the day there. Can you look online and see if there is anything like this in your area? I hope connecting on here is helping. We care about you.