After years of suffering with a mental illness that includes several components, I have become acutely aware that I essentially have no relationships left in my life. My 2 sons do talk to me about superficial things and goings on.

It just hurts me very badly when I think of how so many people want nothing to do with me anymore. My daughter in law, my own sister and all the long lost friends I had prior to my melt down 10 years ago.

I guess those 'friends' and also some cousins that are not nearby don't really matter anymore. I was awake early this morning and thinking of all the failed relationships that I have had at places I worked. The daughter in law and my sister hurt the most. They are unapproachable.

I have tried to rebuild relationships but people seem like they have built up a wall that is NOT coming down! I wish I could not care. I seem to spend many hours feeling sad and rejected. I cannot figure out what I do and say wrong to people. Seems like people are more unfriendly than ever out in public also.

Any ideas to find and make some good relationships?