yeah. he could have sent me a txt. he could have phoned me up. but he didn't.

he said something about how it must be hard. i reached out to him and...

and we won't forget that. he can't hurt her like that and expect things to just continue on as they were before.

behind all his apologising it really is unclear what it is that he takes himself to be apologising for. apologising that i feel bad? apologising that he lied? that is unclear.

i think things are irrevokably damaged to tell you the honest truth. i don't show kt to anyone. not really. close to three %#@&#! weeks in my room with her crying and stuff. she reached out to him and he...

and thats not happening again.

i told him a was mad and w didn't want us to go back.

i gave him the emails. there was a lot of stuff in there... but he picked out one issue (his favourite issue) and seemed completely oblivious to the rest.

'you can tell me anything (i'll ignore the bits i can't cope with)'

yeah right.

he doesn't know how to be honest. i'll go once more but... i really think that this is it. he thinks he can go on about how busy he is and how much he cares about his family every %#@&#! session WHAT THE %#@&#! IS HE TRYING TO DO TO ME?????