Hi evaluna, while I've really, seriously got to commend you in keeping the brave face mask on for your little girl, it is really important that you've got an "outlet" for your emotions somewhere...............whether that's talking to a doctor, a T, a friend. or talking to us. All of them would be good, considering the way you're feeling..........but as many as possible, hey??
And with that mask, well I know it can be so hard, so exhausting to keep that on, so maybe find as much "you time" as you can...........which isn't about "keeping up appearances" whatever you do in that time...........just some time you can "relax" from the "strains" and take it a bit easier??
And if there's anything in your life you can change if only slightly, to relieve some of the pressure?? Sometimes even small changes can make a real difference.
But I know the feeling overwhelmed by emotions is a lot easier said than done to switch off, or even dial down a bit.............so if you want to talk we're here.
You will find a lot of people on here who can really identify with the way you're feeling as well as offer you some support.
Here if you want to talk...........

Alison