Hi all. I have never been a morning person as long as I can remember and it wasn't until the last couple years that I realized that this issue is the main cause of my anxiety, depression and other symptoms. The problem is, if I have to get early for work or school (even 930 is too early) I experience horrible symptoms. I normally fall asleep around 2 am but if I am up later before an early morning I will feel horrible all day. If I'm really really tired I have a reaction where my brain "accelerates" for several days and sometimes I do stupid things like yell at friends or make an expensive purchase (not excessive, like a few hundred dollars tops). This "accelerating" phase is followed by an equally long "depression". I don't feel down or anything, I just don't enjoy anything. I just have to float through life until it passes.

I recently quit my job so I don't have to get up so early but my 1030am class twice a week is still affecting my life. I graduate college in several months and I know I won't be able to get or hold a job so I don't know what to do. My doctor doesn't take my problem seriously. I also have some soft-addiction issues (sorry I don't really want to go into details) and I relapse exclusively after I start having these symptoms.

Just to give a little more detail: When I wake up too early I might fine while in the shower and driving to work or class but I start to crash soon after and I feel awful the rest of the day. Sometimes I start to feel better and then crash again throughout the day. I hate it. I feel awful. After school and work I go home and just sit. No one else has ever heard of this so no one takes me seriously. Do anyone know what is wrong with me?