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Originally Posted by Terabithia
I looked up misophonia - pretty interesting. For me it's the sound of birds and a vacuum cleaner, but then I'm also randomly noise sensitive and I'll tell my husband at those moments "that I'm experiencing noise sensitivity." Every sound is awful at these moments and the quieter it gets, the more sound I hear, because I can't get absolute silence. There is definitely an element of rage. I wonder if this goes along the same lines - I have always been really paranoid about others hearing whispers...for instance, if my sister whispers to me about someone else, I think that it's too loud and that others can hear, and if I whisper to others they always want me to whisper louder, but I can't because I'm too paranoid. Whispers aren't very kind though, anyway, so it's probably best to just ignore them and not do any whispering myself, either!
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I also had another thought occur reading your reply - I have no idea what your diagnosis' are besides schizoaffective, but I have OCD and sometimes I wonder if that aggravates the sound stuff. For example, if I hear one of those trigger sounds, I start to panic anticipating the next one and then I can't distract myself from listening and it becomes this weird obsessive thought cycle that makes it all worse. My shrink calls it my thought tornado. I've always leaned way more towards obsessive thinking rather than compulsions, even though I'd had those in the past.
Also, I'm a musician and I wonder if that kind of makes my ears/brain super sensitive to sounds. I wish I knew a doctor who knew about misophonia. It's kind of a new thing. There is a website where you can download mp3's of hypnosis techniques. I downloaded the misophonia one but I haven't listened to it yet. My therapist recommended the site so I trusted it more than if I found it on my own. Not sure if that's something that might freak you out - some people hate hypnosis, which is fine of course.
Sometimes I wish I were deaf until I realize the music I'd miss/perform. I'm no Beethoven!
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Schizoaffective disorder/mood disorder with psychotic features (depending on who you ask), OCD.
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