Lately for about 2 weeks straight its been consistent suicidal thoughts. No med changes, nothing. I enjoy the thoughts. I need to vent and rant. Being a highschool studuent who's very much different from everyone makes it even that much more difficult on top of the mental illness which flows.

I'd like to think things are/would get "better". Time is a thing I find to be myth, time only brings what the person lets in, and for me help is a no no despite my disire for it. I even find the ppl on PC shrug me away I have dozens upon dozens of views but rarelly 3 replies at most, the past few have been 1 or 2 replies only and its been on here for 2 weeks almost.

Well thats my rant, screw my pdoc to he's nothing I need, rather all I can't have.......