I had a similar thought about driving off a road on my way to work two weeks ago. My therapist asks me at the start of every session if I have suicidal thoughts. I've always said no....I remember thinking people would just think it was an accident. I thought I was truly alone in feeling this way. I didn't dare drive my car for three days for fear that I would do something stupid. I still wish this pain would go away, that the flashbacks would stop and that my tears would finally dry up...I'm still waiting but I have hope. I also annoy myself with my internal whining, this is the first place and first time I've ever admitted to having these feeling. I've always felt that my problems are of no importance to others, I'm a single mum to two girls. I no the pain of having to pretend life is just great. In seven hours (and no sleep) I will slap a smile on my face and go to work and pretend that life is great and another part of me will die. I don't know how to help you feel better. Just believe that if I did know then I would try. Just know that your not alone, even if it feels that way, and through you reaching out for help, I know that I am not alone. For that I thank you. Sending hugs