hey Diakyan, sorry for your loss been through similar stuff, I know how it hurts, especially no support, lack of friends around.. but hey, at last there's internet, try penpals maybe, talk with people via skype, facebook etc. People change, once kind they can be no more, but you can always meet someone new. And you said that you haven't talked to people and they forgot, so why you didn't? Just simple 'hello' from time to time is nice and keeps friendship in some way.. And friends from other countries, you can't hug them sadly, but even talking is really something.. My the closest friends are from other countries, and they helps me with learning languages, listen and try to comfort when I have panic attacks, and giving a reason to life, someday I will visit them all
And, try change way if thinking, weirdness is not a bad thing, 'normal' people are just a common crowd, the ones that are remembered are different and weird and ugly is more like state of a mind imo, because something pretty for one, can be ugly for other and so on~ Be yourself and you find people who will admire you as the way you are
Cheers from europe