As an addendum to my previous post, I didn't want to imply that I curbed my outbursts completely.

We ended up stalling the call to the child psychiatrist. Again.

I tried talking to my mom about tests that I did bad on. I was purposefully withholding them from her, but I wanted to to try and create and honest dialogue for once. She accidentally ended up triggering an outburst from a valid concern. I squashed a poor sushi roll with my fist; I'm just so glad this didn't happen in public.

I suppose that I can't really handle her pressure. Other people's pressure feels more valid. She's also told me [with intention of helping] that bad emotions won't stop unless I control them, which of course is complete bull. Right?