When I was around 14, my psychologist of about 2 years at the time suggested I may have bipolar disorder. At the time they were juggling the diagnosis of borderline personality disorder, but I really grew out of all the symptoms I was experiencing of that. For the past three years now I've been experiencing off and on psychotic symptoms and have been diagnosed with psychosis NOS. But I am a really up and down person, I mean one month I am so productive and will sign up for school and have all these aspirations and once I start I don't stop until I hit one of my dull stages again when I just kind of want to lye in bed and never get up.. I get so happy for that month that I will sit in my bed at night and just shake I'll be so full of excitement and I don't know what about.. Sometimes it scares me and other people like my friends, because I'm so unpredictable sometimes, but when I am in those moods I am so much more popular among my friends, always wanting to do stuff, until I crash bad. I used to use drugs a lot but went to rehab 6 months ago and have been clean since then and it has literally gotten worse, so it is not drugs. I am not compliant with my psych meds most of the time because they make me so dull and I am so full of energy off of them, but usually when I get down I will go back on them and see what happens. I'm only prescribed risperidone now because I stopped taking everything else and refused to even take a prescription home with me for anything else. Also I get a really good outlook on life during my ups and I'll feel good about myself, because I usually lose weight when I'm happier because I don't stop. But I'm getting tired of these episodes whatever it is , I just want to be able to live normally and sleep and not have everyone think I'm on drugs because I get so happy. I've never mentioned this to my psychiatrist at the time and I don't know if I should or not. Any suggestions or experience ?