I'm very sorry for your suffering, my mother as well as my entire family is like this to me as well. I understand what your going through, I deal with similar pains and distress myself at times. My mother treats me like a dog that should just play out in the road, if all she cared. I get emotionally abused and in a state of worthlessness a lot.

I'm sorry if I'm not a help, but know there are people out there, like here, who want to help you, if you desperately need someone to talk to, you can PM anytime.