I can't believe how much this sounds like me!! This is exactly what I have been going through the last month. I told T something that has made me feel like terminating the whole thing!! For reasons I don't understand, that last thing I told her has made me totally disconnect from her!! It's really strange, but I'm still hanging in there. I so know what you mean about wanting a hug. Sometimes it's almost unbearable and alone. We just have to accept that physical affection isn't part of the therapy. Sometimes I feel like screaming "Why don't you just give me a hug?". I do feel some sense of caring in her eyes though, but sometimes that just makes me feel even sadder. I have never cried in therapy either, although I truely wish I could....in fact I haven't really cried for a long time! Just hang in there and know that this will pass, don't end therapy yet. I feel for you so much ev and totally understand ((((((((((((((((((ev))))))))))))))))))))).