Alright guys, this is actually my first post on these forums so cut me some slack. I am a 30yr old male that has had quite the experiences in job loss. I have been terminated from approximately 15 employers in the past 10 years, and the ones I didn't get terminated from, I just quit on. I have been diagnosed with anxiety disorder by my doctor. He is a general phd, not a psychologist. In my late teens I was able to hold a job, I actually ran part of a shop and was in charge of training new employees and doling out the work load. When I was 18 my father killed himself, we were separated from each other for roughly 7 years. I chose to live with my mother because of his abusive nature and drug/alcohol addictions. When I was 20 my mother accidentally overdosed and I found her lifeless, yet still warm to the touch. I performed CPR and so did the EMT's when they got there but there was nothing that could be done, she had been gone for to long. This wrecked havoc on me. I turned to a bad crowd, but eventually got away from all the ********. I couldn't handle it anymore and I was about to lose the love of my life because of these people. I chose to stand beside my gf now wife, and things have drastically improved over the years, but I cannot hold a job. After losing so many jobs, I have such a fear of losing the next one(the one that's not even there) that I don't even apply myself to looking anymore. I wait until bills back up to the point where I have to get out and join the work force again. It's a never ending cycle, find job, work for 9 months or so, then get fired. REPEAT. I can't take it anymore. I need some guidance on what I need to do or who I should talk to. Any and all help is appreciated. I am also very intolerant to people who have never lived a hard day in their life, this is probably one of my personality defects that causes me job loss's. I just can't relate to people anymore. Nor do I have the tolerance to try. I also cannot put up with being talked down to, I always pump my chest out because I was taught to fight at a young age. Don't let anyone talk down to you, stand up for what is yours. Treat people the way you want to be treated. I am very quite and will always look the other way when people act dumb or ignorant, unless it directly involves me, or goes against my morals/ethics. ex. making fun of people with physical defects or mental defects. These cases plus many more make me tend to fly off the handle. I'm lost, please help if you can.