I've been writing this guy online for about two months and we really liked each other. and I was always looking forward to getting new messages from him. and this whole thing got me out of my depression during the last two months.
so I've met him and he didn't seem interesting at first but I felt like I wanted to contunue writing anyway because I enjoyed it.
so now we met a second time and tonight -which was an important night work-wise- he send me a text saying he wants nothing more to do with me. I am so speechless and confused now. It was a guy that was never ever going to get a girl like me again (he = nerd, me = sort of good-looking with interesting biography). and I just don't get what I did wrong. the odd and unsettling thing is, I think he dumped me just because I decided I want him. this is happening to me all the time. as long as I don't care everything is fine. but as soon as I decide I want something it is not available anymore!!!!!!
**** life. I want this to stop. can it not just be over and keep me from more misery. I already lowered my expectations of what good things may happen as far as I could. I don't have any expectations. but even the most stupid unattractive person in the world doesn't want to be around me. I feel lost. Shoudl I just end it? I don't really know what I'm supposed to do. Probably nothing, except **** off anf die!