Hi Sundance.....
Thankyou for your reply - it was really helpful. I am also 24 and the stuff (hate the word abuse because I dont even know if thats what it was) happened between the ages of about 8-10. I just hate the way that it has left me feeling. I think that I used the binge/purge cycle of bulimia to block out the feelings and, because I am thinking about it a lot, the binging has got worse.

I have been seeing my current therapist for about 7 months and, although I find it fairly easy to talk about the bulimia and other things, I just cant talk about difficult issues. I did write a letter to him (a really long one) but since then have tried to forget about it, and pretend that he never read it. He suggested last time that he read it out loud but never got round to it. Have only just started to cry in therapy - something which I find very difficult to do in front of people.

I think I am just so confused right now - have only recently linked up certain events and the way things have happened to the past (or maybe I am clutching at straws). I dont know - Im just confused and scared. I just wish I could remember everything forget about it. I dont want to keep binging to block it all out because I know that isnt healthy, and I dont want to continue with the self injury because it is very difficult to hide.

Would be interested to hear of the books about PTSD which you mentioned. I got a good one from the library called "Overcoming Traumatic Stress" which is very informative and has various exercises which look like they could be of use (havent tried them yet though).

Thanks again for your reply

Stormy xx