I fought being diagnosed for yrs. I was on sleep meds and was like, I want sleep it can't be bp. Then I went into a a psychosis and ended up in the hospital bc I hadn't eaten or slept for 5 days. In the hospital they were like bp 1. I was like I need evidence. So I took 4 different tests. They came out bp 1 with PTSD.

I don't find anything cool or glamorous about having bp. If anything I think it's not cool and not glamorous. Now I'm on these meds and gaining weight. It completely sucks. And I need to be on these meds especially for sleep bc I just got out of the hospital a few days ago bc I was barely sleeping. Found out it was a combination of bp and sleep apnea. So until I get that all figured out I'm gonna still just going to be getting minimal amount of sleep.

My life completely sucks right now.