I finally got to a point where I realized I don't want to go back. I am leaving old relationships behind. I don't care about anyone from my past unless they are a supportive family member (plenty aren't!). I am a completely different person, and most of those people I left behind know the me that I was 5, 10, 15 or even 20 years ago. I have no desire to rekindle something. There are SO many awesome people out there that I see no need to try and fix the broken relationships of my past. I'd have to do a heck of a lot of apologizing, and I am sick of that! I have a mental disorder, and if someone can't cut me a little slack, then I want nothing to do with them. I have a theory that one day these people will be down on their luck and karma will come and bit them in the ***. They will have the same treatment given to them that they gave to me. But by then, I will be long gone. In the meantime, I'm having a good time trying to meet new people, new awesome people. Yes, it takes time to weed through the bad ones, but even if I only end up with a few good friendships, it'll all be worth it.