Hello everyone and thank you for your time, Before I begin there are a few things i need to say: 1. I've lied to my current girlfriend about my past 2. I've talked to other people without her knowing 3. I was given countless opportunities to "come clean" and never took advantage of those times. 4. I don't want pity, I want guidance.

Ok to begin, My first relationship was mental and physically abusive. I never had another experience at the time to fully understand what was going on but I considered our relationship, unique, to say the least. I was constantly demanded to prove my love to her, which included letting her sleep with others and (here's the biggest factor in all of this) crossdress for her. The relationship continued this way for a long time until a close family member intervened and took me away from that environment.

I want to go into more detail about this and another relationship but I will save that for another entry.

That relationship and another one have been the "standard" for me. Thats not to say i haven't been in other relationships without "kinks" but those were rebounds (my apologies for sounding so insensitive)

My question is this: I love my girlfriend, beyond what we have done sexually she is everything a man can ask for. So what steps and what precautions are necessary to go from a "kink" relationship to a "normal" relationship? Keep in mind I have already given into actions from my past, I messaged others sexually when i felt i was not getting enough sexually from my current girlfriend.

To clearify: I WANT a "normal" relationship. I just want to know if someone has any guidance. Maybe it seems easy for others to flip a switch but it has not been easy for me. I believe I can make a change in myself, because I want this change.

If more details are needed then please feel free to ask.