My friend should arrive in a few hours. I started to have nausea and panic and delusional worries about being drugged or harmed by my friend yesterday, but today I have been just really depressed. He sent me an email a couple of days ago that seemed really weird. Probably he was drunk, but it started my suspicions going. Rationally I think it will be a uneventful weekend of touristy activities. Right now I feel fine except for wishing I didn't have to do this.