I am a bit older sap123 at 50 Also bipolar... with self esteem issues. To say the least, lol. Major issues here. You are doing great accepting and recognizing these sap... My therapy has focused on "just" liking me again these past two years. Sounds funny, but very difficult at times. Any STD's and stuff like this aside... YOU need to feel comfortable with being yourself before you embark in a relationship with anyone. Trust me And you will find someone.. I know.