Thanks again. Problem is....when I look at my achievements....the phrase "yeah so what - so where did it get ya?" always starts playing, over and over, in my mind. I've got the mind set that hard work and determination should bring me tangible results....and I just can't seem to see those.

BUT - today was a good day. Didn't start out that way. My 6 hour non-medicated shift yesterday meant it took me trying twice before I could stand up (ouchie ouchie feet) - hubby had the shop vac running before I made it into the kitchen (loud loud loud) and then the phone rang before I got my first sip of coffee. On a bad day, that combination is enough to turn me into.....well.....a raving lunatic. No other way to put it.

And yet, as inexplicable as the bad stuff is when it tears you down....today that crap didn't drag me down. I cleaned, did laundry, baked a cake, AND engaged in a bit of automotive diagnosis. I'm even feeling hopeful that come Monday (payday & my next day off) I will be able to get what I need to fix my truck.....and hopefully it WILL fix it. Now THAT would be an achievement I will crow about - not shabby at all for a 49 year old woman with a broken arm!

LOL Just re-read my original post, from only three days ago....and then the responses of y'all, up to my post here now. Big change....short time.....and it's enough to drive a sane woman bonkers.....no wonder *I* feel that way so often! But, I guess this saga of mine is a good example of why we shouldn't give into suicidal impulses. As bleak as it looked to me such a short time ago, things might maybe possibly be turning around. Then again,....that might just be my manic depression talking.

Don't care. Today was a GOOD day, and I'm gonna revel in it, and enjoy that I had it. And I think it happened because I had you guys to talk to, so here's a very heart-felt THANK YOU to you all!