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The_little_didgee · Oct 10, 2014, 08:27 PM

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Originally Posted by kaliope

this is where i thank god i have a dissociative disorder. i am the queen of avoiding invasive testing......i avoid the drs at all costs......when i do go, i take the drugs to get thru...so yes to anesthesia.......and i just keep in mind that this is medical...it is run of the mill routine process...i try to see it from the dr prespective....not a big deal.....quick in and out....if i look at it from mine...mountain out of mole hill....so i dont look at it from mine...my view is trauma based....i recognize that it will be over in no time...so basically, i try to stay out of my head and look at it from the medical prospective because i know i am blowing it out of proportion...good luck and take care.

I hate going to the doctor too. Usually I wait until I cannot stand the suffering. I know this isn't good but my fears of terrible treatment and adverse drug reactions prevent me from seeing the therapeutic side of medicine. My fears are real since I have endured some really nasty treatments, bowel infections and hospitalizations. I know my worries are a bit excessive especially since my doctor offered sedation or general anesthesia, both of which I had before.

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Originally Posted by ECHOES

You say you don't want to comply, but you want to feel better. What are your fears about having a scope?

The bowel prep terrifies me a lot more than sedation and anesthesia. I refused to do it. I'm terrified the laxative overdose and third degree butthole burns are going to make me very ill. I've had dehydration before and don't ever want to go through that again. I'm very prone to side effects. My GERD and sensitive stomach make it a lot worse.

I just found out there is an alternative colon prep called colon hydrotherapy that can replace the harsh laxatives, cramping and nausea. There are a few local clinics that do this so I'm going to request it. I'd rather pay than go through explosive diarrhea that I know will aggravate my back end.

I'm also scared they are going to find ulcers in my colon. I don't know how I would cope with that news since I already struggle with mental illness.