Okay; I just tried to post and I did something and lost it; dont know where it went. I will try again.
I am wondering who is going to win this fight. Is it going to be my mind telling me that I am fine, I dont need the hospital, or doctors, to keep going the way I am; OR is it going to be my heart and body telling me that I am shutting down.
I am so friging angry. Maybe I should just calm down; maybe he will call. My mind is racing so bad, it sucks. I cant keep thoughts straight, nothing makes sense to me.
One minute; I need help. The next, I am fine. This battle in my head is driving me insane. I want it to stop.

justy