I want to apologize for this post. Sometimes I post online in an agitated state and my words are exaggerated. My mother is not emotionally abusive. She just withholds very slightly (but since I live with her and am depressed I feel it far deeply than I should). She grew up with a mother who was probably the same. My grandmother seems just slightly distant as well, like there's a veil of religiousness between her and myself.
I'm sorry! I feel so bad about this... I don't want to get empathy by exaggerating or falsifying information... What I wrote was true, but it was mostly how I was feeling which was beyond reality.