Thanks, Angelique. So far so good. We had dinner last night and I feel very emotionally drained this morning but everything went fine. One odd thing happened, but I think it actually happened. A toad came jumping into his motel room when I met him last night and I had to catch it. Then a small brown centipede or something seemed to be riding on the toad and ran away in his room before I could catch it. My friend mentioned the toad later, so I think it actually happened?

I suspect seeing this friend brings up painful issues and that might be why I had a breakdown when I saw him several years ago. I used to have a good job and a little bit of social life and friends, but now things have changed drastically. I cope by trying not to think about the past, but my friend probably forces me to think.