Hello rex06, anxiety and depression often go together unfortunately. You will need additional medication and therapy for the anxiety. I see you say that you cannot get to a doctor. Have a look in the Anxiety, Panic and Phobias and Depression forums and look at how other people learn to cope with it. In time you will find your own ways of coping and build up a toolbox. Please go and see a doctor, things can change, it won't be like this forever.