(((bluedonna92))),

It's ok, you needed to "vent/rant" that's all. The important thing is there may be "some" truth to your rant, and you are expressing a lot of frustrations you are having with yourself and all of that surfaced to where you just needed to vent it all out.

You say you are in your 20's right now, are you early, mid, or late 20's?

Also, I noticed you tend to eat sweets and carbs sometimes, the reason you crave these at times is because they raise seritonin levels.

You should investigate taking vitamins.

What was your major in College? Also you talked about loving Dance too. You don't have to get good enough to be a professional dancer you know. You could study dance and then open a dance studio where you teach young children to dance.

You mentioned trying to waitress and how stressful that was, well, not everyone is cut out for that and don't work well under high stressed out bosses or dealing with the soap opera that typically takes place in these environments.

You talked about being an opare too, well, then maybe you like being around children and should look into either teaching dance or some other avenue where you work with children yet have your own life too. When someone is an opare they typically only get to stay with one family and don't get all that much exposure to other interesting things.

((Hugs))
OE