Moonkin don't be sorry about your posts. I am sorry that you have gone through so much and are in so much pain. I hope that your doc is as good as you think. You are intelligent make up your own mind about your doc as there really are good ones out there. It sounds like you may have found one and hang in there with them. Maybe you can try to not let others circumstances cloud yours.

PLease confide in your doc they are there to help you through these times. And we are here for you too. Take care.

BB