I don't know how to word this, really....

Occasionally, I come here and recognize an SOS....If I'm able, I reach out (not often publicly any more), and perhaps it matters, perhaps it doesn't. I don't really know. It seems to....

I FULLY understand the state of depression and it's limitations. I know that we're all here because we need and are hurting.

Sometimes, though, I wish someone who is able would recognize my SOS. Sometimes, things are bad enough that I will email someone I have communicated to in the past (a very VERY difficult thing for me to do). I get no reply. Occasionally I get FURTHER pushed away.

I feel very much unworthy.

If this is unclear, because I'm babbling a little, then feel free to ignore it.