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Originally Posted by sophiesmom
I don't know how to word this, really....
Occasionally, I come here and recognize an SOS....If I'm able, I reach out (not often publicly any more), and perhaps it matters, perhaps it doesn't. I don't really know. It seems to....
I FULLY understand the state of depression and it's limitations. I know that we're all here because we need and are hurting.
Sometimes, though, I wish someone who is able would recognize my SOS. Sometimes, things are bad enough that I will email someone I have communicated to in the past (a very VERY difficult thing for me to do). I get no reply. Occasionally I get FURTHER pushed away.
I feel very much unworthy.
If this is unclear, because I'm babbling a little, then feel free to ignore it.
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I am sorry for your pain Sophiesmom... personally I tend not to reach out any more. Few, if any, can really understand my pain & few know how to respond. So when I have reached out for comfort, or divulged my struggles, I generally just end up feeling exposed & foolish. I have reached the point where I no longer seek healing, either from within or without. My goal now is simply to sit silently with my pain with compassion & lovingkindness.
There is a wonderful book by Parker J. Palmer titled:
A Hidden Wholeness-
The Journey Toward an Undivided Life. In this book Palmer asserts no one can ever really understand another person's innermost feelings. They are too complex. All we can do, all we should do, is to stand at the edge of a person's sacred circle & provide quiet support for the person's self-healing. And so, with that thought in mind, please know I am standing at the perimeter of your sacred circle.
