Every time I date someone or fall in love, I feel the need to do what they are doing or change to be what they are or are like. Almost like I want to be them. And by being them then they will love me as I love them. Think that makes sense.

Like if they are in college then I believe I have to be in college too or they won't love me. If they are exercising to build muscle then I need to or they will leave. It's almost like I believe I have to be more than what I am cause it won't be enough to keep them in my life.

I never felt this way before 28 year old. My last 5 year relationship ended and he told me I wasn't ambitious enough and said I was not good looking.

I'm just tired of feeling I won't be loved if I don't do what they are doing. I want to be me and be happy.

I'm a gay male, 36 years old and have bipolar manic-depressive disorder.

Any advise or insight?